How many of you are chasing two careers. You have one that pays most of the bills, and one that is your passion. Or maybe your passionate about both.
Everyday I seemed to obsess over how to fit everything I want to accomplish into my 24-hour day. Most days I don’t accomplish half of what I set out to do and I retire to my bed with this gnawing feeling of stagnation and failure.
It wasn’t until just a few years ago I started excepting the fact that I wouldn’t live forever. “What, are you serious, not me, no way”. I also started really analyzing what I had accomplished so far in my life and I found I was really dissatisfied. Don’t you want to leave a mark, a daily reminder that you somehow made the world a little better by being here.
I know I have done that with my children. I have taught them to be good people, conscious of their world, to give back and care for the less fortunate. And even though as teenagers they look at their parents as ignorant and clueless, I know there will be a time when they will come back to a common ground and appreciate the things we have taught them. Maybe they will even realize that we are the intelligent, incredible people that they looked up to as a young child. At least in theory. Where am I going with this?
I guess the bottom line I am struggling with is I have two careers that I am passionate about. One is veterinary medicine, the other photography. Both are challenging, rewarding, and can be profitable. But there isn’t enough time in a day to really feel like I am giving enough to either.
During many days we take broken animals and fix them. We comfort people dealing with loss, and find a companion for a lonely elderly person who just lost their spouse. We explain to children about proper care for their new puppy and develop programs to help less fortunate pets receive much-needed medical service. Tell me what is not to love about that.
But then there is the photography part of my career. Sometimes it gets pushed to the back burner. This part of my life really grounds me from the stresses of my other career.
This career feeds my soul. I can escape after days of emotional crisis at the hospital and heal with my photography. When I am composing an image I am breathing, I fall into a state of calm, all my thoughts dissolve. I meditate.
At least I think that is what happens. Maybe the closest I every really get to the practice of meditation. In the past I have taken classes on meditation. I have also failed miserably.
While the rest of the class is clearing their minds, getting closer to a physical and mental state of wellbeing, I’m the one frantically trying to concentrate on not concentrating. I sit in the back of the room and can’t stop thinking about what I am suppose to not be thinking about. Over and over I try to put those thoughts on clouds, blow them away with my exhalations, they come back bigger, on bigger clouds.
But I am beginning to realize that photography is my meditation. When I am composing an image I am in that state of tranquility that the great masters always talk about. As I looked into this phenomenon more I realized that I was really on to something.
Miksang is a Tibetan word that translates as ‘Good Eye’. Based on Shambhala and Dharma techniques of the late meditation master Chogyan Trungpa, contemplative photography with ‘good’ meaning a mind uncluttered by preoccupation, relaxed and open. This technique incorporates the eye being in sync with the contemplative mind. A visual capture, with the mind’s eye, of reality in its most simplest form!
I am starting to understand that meditation can come in many different forms. I could sit (which does not work as previously discussed), I could walk (walking meditation is a common practice for many), or I could follow my passion AND create wellbeing within.
Check out their website about Miksang and the process of bringing together the art of photography and the discipline of meditation. I have a friend who follows this practice and her photographs are absolutely inspiring. You can check out her website at www.manonfrancoeur.com .
So last but not least, when life gives you apples, make cake!
This cake is, well maybe not to die for but really, really good. To really grasp it’s complexity let it cool completely.
Apple Cake With Carmel Topping
non-stick vegetable spray
3 c. all-purpose flour (I always use King Arthur)
2 t. ground cinnamon
1t. baking soda
1 t. salt
1 pound Golden Delicious apples peeled, cored, cut into 1/2 inch cubes
2 c. (packed) light brown sugar
11/2c. vegetable oil
1 c. sugar
3 large eggs
4 t. vanilla extract
3/4 c. pecans, coarsely chopped
1/2 c. (1 stick) unsalted butter
1/4 c. whole milk
Preheat oven to 350′F. Spray a 12-cup Bundt pan with nonstick spray. Sift flour, cinnamon, baking soda, and salt into a medium bowl. Transfer 3 Tablespoons flour mixture into the bowl of cubed apples, toss to coat apples. Combine 1 cup brown sugar, vegetable oil, 1 cup sugar, eggs, and 3 teaspoons vanilla in a large bowl. Using an electric mixer, beat until mixture is thick, about 4 minutes. Gradually beat in remaining flour mixture. Fold apple mixture and pecans into batter; transfer to Bundt pan.
Bake cake until tester inserted near center comes out clean, about 1 hour. Transfer cake pan to rack to cool. Let stand while making caramel.
Melt butter in a heavy small skillet over medium heat, Whisk in remaining 1 cup brown sugar, then milk. Continue to whisk until topping is smooth and blended and comes to boil, about 5 minutes. Whisk in remaining 1 teaspoon vanilla. (be careful it will platter a bit). Spoon 1/4 cup of caramel mixture over warm cake in pan. Let stand until topping is absorbed into cake, about 15 minutes. Turn cake out onto plate, and pour the rest of the caramel topping over cake. Let stand until cool, at least one hour.































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